Perhaps it’s because I’ve started a blog and I get to talk about all the things I want to no-one in particular, instead of having the little conversations in my head. Perhaps it’s because when I broke my heart and got such a shock that I could feel as crappy at 37 as I did every other time, I decided to have a look at why and found out some really powerful stuff about my beliefs and the way I was letting them drive my experience. Perhaps it’s because I signed up to start Boot Camp next week, and have to get up at 5.30am three days a week and really I just feel a bit nervited/excitous about getting up in the freezing cold, dark, wintery weather and getting my fitness goals challenged!
Or maybe, in combination, it’s because I can see I can do something to share with the world, and I finally am OK if no-one reads it or likes it, and I changed what I believed about myself and other people by doing a bit of discovery on beliefs, and getting fit is actually really empowering. I really don’t like the personal trainer kicking my ass, or feeling like vomiting after a PT session, so I have added determination to get fit so it feels good. Apparently that does happen.
So I believe, that when you change EVERYTHING changes. Your experience is different, the way you feel about yourself is transformed, and you notice something more in all the people around you. I do hope my excitement can be kept at appropriate level, because it is a bit OTT at the minute, but I’m guessing three 6am floggings next week will probably tone me down a bit! Or not…..Exciting isn’t it?